Its 5 a.m.

Up without reason, bored to no end, and sad. Don't tell me to feel better or cheer up. Just listen to me when I say, I'm sad.

I miss someone. In fact, I might miss a few. But it ends there.

Its cold in my room and I'm dreading to go back in there. Not that there's some visible monster lurking in the darkness, but simply because there's an invisible one waiting for me...loneliness.

For months I've been itching and scratching to write a love poem. I can't. Not because I'm not IN love, but because I've questioned love more than I feel it. How am I suppose to express something that holds a big question mark over it?

All these boys are making me loathe some. They're either cumming or going. Noticed I said "cumming"?

My social life is at a halt. I don't think I can be around celebratory events with my attitude. I just might f-ck the whole sh-t up. -shrugs-

I would see a therapist about all of this if it was required for therapist themselves to not have any problems of their own. So I guess its either that, or deal with my issues solo. I'll take the latter.

Y'all don't hear me doe...

Yes Ma'am....

"Wouldn`t it be nice to be like men and get notches in your belt and sleep with most attractive men and not get emotionally involved?"- Ms. Monroe

Oh, hi there...

Haven't written on this old thing in quite some time. I thought this would be like my little diary but problem is I'm not consistent with it. So anyway, I'll just update it as frequently as I can with as much as I can. I'm a very private person but also very open when I want to be. Those times don't come very often. But, when they do I just hope I can be mirror to someone and show them that I'm you and you are me. Sounds corny? Well I can be that way at times lol. Anyway respect me, my thoughts, views and feelings. After all, they are MINE. Well enjoy... I know you've missed me... I've missed you too.

I can't believe I'm back up in this ma'fucka...

Yea so I previously deleted my last blog because frankly I was bored with it and really didn't feel like talking my shit at the time. But now...can I talk my shit again???????